my little girl…
a few years ago
she wondered if the elves
would visit her at christmas
christmas always hard for me
birthdays
other holidays too
layers and layers of reasons
bring her such joy tho
so an elf appeared
and every season
would move round the house
place to place
bringing mischief, antics and fun
Saadaya named her Sparkles
asked Sparkles if that was cool
guess it was
cause the name stuck
now apparently these elves
can’t be touched
you can steal their magick
so Saadaya didn’t touch her
but she ached to hold her
to play with her
snuggle with her
one time Sparkles had a little door
and there were footprints
leading to this little speedster!
with little rainbow candies
in the back seat!
another time
her door was on the ceiling!
with a looooong little ladder
to reach the floor…
Saadaya thought
she must be avoiding our dog Ella
she’s a big girl Ella
and so so curious
with big teeth
but then she found Ella
with a bow round her neck
and a new bone
and little footprints up her back
we had a huge laugh
spent the day in giggles
this Elf was serious
‘bout her mischief!
then one day
Saadaya saw her dad move her…
devastation.
she threw her down
raged
didn’t speak to us for a while
months went by
no words of Sparkles
and one day
while we were crafting
and seemingly out of the blue
she say
mom
you think Sparkles hates me?
said i wasn’t so sure
that elves can hate
told me she wished
she would come back
Sparkles must have heard her
cause she showed up yesterday
sitting in a glass flour container
with the top on!
just omg!
we laughed and laughed
even my 13 year old ; )
thought she might feel at home
ya know
flour kinda looks like snow
Saadaya took her out
cleaned her up
spent the day talking to her
working things out
i could hear her
all the feels
they played fortnite together
then i saw Sparkles
on the floor in a corner
later tucked in Saadaya’s shirt
it was windy outside
ya know…
didn’t want the wind
to bring her Covid
and Saadaya hadn’t
made her a mask yet
anyway
Saadaya came up to me
said mom
ya know what?
i think daddy was just helping her
Sparkles told me
she was having some trouble last year
really?
yep.
how so?
said she lost some of her magick
had trouble getting around
said nobody touched her
nobody held her
said all them rumors
to not snuggle her
not true
of course elves need snuggles!
Sparkles said
she fell on the floor that day
daddy holding her
saved her life
said he washed her clean
of not being seen
why people live in illusions mommy?
they got it all wrong!
it’s windy again today
found Sparkles this morning
floating on a cloud…
🖤
december 3rd, 2020
